In my very first BDSM relationship, I was the Dominant. Well, I played the role of Dominant anyway, dressing up in leather, whirling a flogger over my head, giving my masochistic boyfriend frequent beatings … and growing very irritated when he didn’t do what I told him. Aren’t you supposed to be my submissive? I’d…
It is not even three months since my husband and I discovered BDSM and began a journey into power exchange, and yet I go to bed each night thinking we have finally plumbed the depths of what D/s has to offer us. As we drift off to sleep, I press up against his back, certain…
Daddy finally – finally! – gets his cock in my ass. For an actual minute. I’ve already spent an hour face down across his lap with him spanking me and playing with my holes and sticking progressively larger butt plugs in me. They are the soft, more flexible ones that aren’t so rough on delicate…
I am having a rough work day, lots of difficult conversations and criticism of the pages I have turned in. And in the middle of this, Michael sends me an email. He wants me waiting naked in bed for him when he gets home from work, to have ropes and riding crop ready so he…
I have a new hobby: Contemplating all the ways in which sexual submission is similar to actual spiritual practices, and how it is “saving” me. The first is obvious, and that’s the experience of surrender in the most literal way. Eastern religions have long taught that when one is truly surrendered, relinquishing all power and…
This afternoon I find myself in a jagged mood for no reason. Some sort of hormonal anger where I feel like throwing things (do throw things, my hairbrush, my sandal, go bouncing off the couch). I send Michael a message that I won’t be there when he gets home from work, I’m headed to get…
Deep submission, says David Deida, allows a woman to experience her own “uninhibited sexual essence.” Well, I’d say the man knows what he’s talking about. In the few weeks since I submitted my body to my husband, I am have become so fucking uninhibited, and my sexual longings have become so intense that it’s freaking…
The first half of 2017 is not an auspicious time to start a blog on sexual submission. Maybe a few years ago, thanks to the success of the 50 Shades of Grey series of books and movies, my story of sexually submitting to my husband would have fit the cultural moment. But since Donald Trump…
Monday morning, Michael has an early meeting, and I let him think I am still asleep as he kneels on the bed to kiss me goodbye. Even if we had time to talk, I don’t know what I’d say. I have no idea what happened to our determination to establish a D/s relationship, it seems…
As we head into Saturday evening, we are high on the electric connection our new power dynamic has created between us. And the evening begins nicely, with Michael tying me in a breast harness. It is like slow hypnosis, as I feel his hands move against my skin, and the rope tighten around me, I…
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